Personality disorders - To take meds or not to take meds?
Posted: Wed Apr 10, 2013 11:54 am
Hi everyone,
I did a quick search for a similar topic and came across an OCD specific one so I thought I'd just make one about general personality disorders (or mood disorders etc.).
I've been unofficially told by a couple psychiatrists that I might have borderline personality disorder and social anxiety disorder (but I guess the latter can also fit into BPD as a symptom or type of thought pattern).
I used to do drugs and have problems with alcohol, but for a few years now I haven't done anything (not even weed) other than beer, (rarely) wine and I'm a regular (cigarette) smoker. I was on different kinds of meds in the past but I quit them all.
Last summer I had a blackout at a family gathering after drinking tons, and acted like a total piece of s***, so I decided that I'd limit myself to a maximum of 4 beers at all times. This didn't work out on a few occasions since then but I've been trying.
A couple nights ago I got into an argument with my boyfriend on skype (long distance), and I went to the bar to have a couple beers and relax. A couple turned into one too many and I had apparently acted like an ecocentric, arrogant douchebag with disregard to other people's feelings and/or opinions. I absolutely hate that and I really don't think (I hope I don't!) act like that when I'm sober, even though I am quite self-absorbed and paranoid about all kinds of things. I never want that to happen again and although I'd like to trust myself and know that I won't let it happen, I'm not so sure I can. I'm thinking of taking medication again that would hopefully take the edge off, balance me out and as a bonus prevent me from consuming too much alcohol (and turning into a piece of crap). I'm worried about other unwanted side-effects, but I think I might need to do this. My boyfriend thinks I need therapy but I'm not keen on opening up all kinds of wounds on a regular basis, so I'm considering a monthly session.
Are any of you/have you been in similar situations? If so, how do you deal with them if they become detrimental to your ability to socialize normally and, more importantly, maintain healthy interpersonal relationships, and exercise self-control? Are you for or against medication, or in-between?
Cheers!
I did a quick search for a similar topic and came across an OCD specific one so I thought I'd just make one about general personality disorders (or mood disorders etc.).
I've been unofficially told by a couple psychiatrists that I might have borderline personality disorder and social anxiety disorder (but I guess the latter can also fit into BPD as a symptom or type of thought pattern).
I used to do drugs and have problems with alcohol, but for a few years now I haven't done anything (not even weed) other than beer, (rarely) wine and I'm a regular (cigarette) smoker. I was on different kinds of meds in the past but I quit them all.
Last summer I had a blackout at a family gathering after drinking tons, and acted like a total piece of s***, so I decided that I'd limit myself to a maximum of 4 beers at all times. This didn't work out on a few occasions since then but I've been trying.
A couple nights ago I got into an argument with my boyfriend on skype (long distance), and I went to the bar to have a couple beers and relax. A couple turned into one too many and I had apparently acted like an ecocentric, arrogant douchebag with disregard to other people's feelings and/or opinions. I absolutely hate that and I really don't think (I hope I don't!) act like that when I'm sober, even though I am quite self-absorbed and paranoid about all kinds of things. I never want that to happen again and although I'd like to trust myself and know that I won't let it happen, I'm not so sure I can. I'm thinking of taking medication again that would hopefully take the edge off, balance me out and as a bonus prevent me from consuming too much alcohol (and turning into a piece of crap). I'm worried about other unwanted side-effects, but I think I might need to do this. My boyfriend thinks I need therapy but I'm not keen on opening up all kinds of wounds on a regular basis, so I'm considering a monthly session.
Are any of you/have you been in similar situations? If so, how do you deal with them if they become detrimental to your ability to socialize normally and, more importantly, maintain healthy interpersonal relationships, and exercise self-control? Are you for or against medication, or in-between?
Cheers!